Off of drops, on to maintenance...

Here we go.. I say over all.. my cycle this time sucked. I cheated countless times and didn't stick to it like I should. I did lose weight... I am 246 now.. as apposed to 266. So thats good. I am worried about this month and how it's going to go, and even the month after that. This next week I am having gulllbadder surgery. AWESOME right? Yah... so not only am I on maintenance but I am going to be bed ridden for a few weeks not able to workout or anything! I hope this maintenance phase goes well this time around! We will see I guess. I am please how far I have come, but anxious to get to the goal weight. But I need to understand this is a process and will take quite a while and thats ok! I can't let that overwhelm me. I need to feel happy and excited all the way through this journey. I am determined to do this! I CAN DO THIS, I AM DOING THIS! :)

Here goes another apple day!

So today I am going to do an apple day. I have gained .2 this morning because I cheated last night and had a bowl of cereal. LOL... so not needed but I just wanted it. So apple day for me! I am also doing a bet with my best friend who is also doing this HCG program.. who can lose 10 pounds first. So... of coarse what do I go and do? Cheat? Sure why not? LOL.. Oh well I am not too worried about it. I am sure she will win, but the point of it all is to get us WANTING to lose, like a little insentive. Anyways I will check in tomorrow have a great day!

MORNING GLORY!

Seriously? Is there anything left to say? AWESOME~~~~~~!!!! Thats all!!!!!

How's it going?

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I updated. Life has been hectic and of coarse busy busy busy. I am down to 51 pounds total. I wish I was more down but I did a couple cheat days. I also am going in for gall bladder surgery on the 8th of June. Ugh. That is going to be very interesting. By then I will be on maintenance and I guess I should just be careful what I am eating. I didn't weigh in this morning. Why? Well I have been a bad girl because last night I was so hungry I ate some cereal. Not sure why I was so hungry? Not enough water? I don't know. I could have just not listen to the hunger pains, because I went to bed feeling nasty and full of proccessed foods, and dairy. ICK. I still feel nasty. I need to get back on track. I have been on my cycle as long as normal, but since my daughter spilled out half my first bottle I am on a bottle and a half. I want to just get off of it now.. but I think it's better if I just stick it out. I keep changing my mind every 5 minutes. The weather is changing over here finally. It's becoming nicer and alot less rain. The garden is growing well. Can't wait to get fresh veggies from there instead of buying them. Anyways today I will stick to the plan. I will not cheat. I need to lose at least 5 more pounds with this half bottle I still have.

I'm BACK!

It's been a while since I checked in. Alot has been going on. At this point I lost 3lbs on maintenance (YAHOO!) and started my third round of drops on 5/5/11. I have done great! I am SO glad to be back on drops. I do so well on them.. it's the maintenance that kills me. But I am doing great.. I am on day 7 of the drops 5 of the vlcd. I lost 46 pounds so far!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am doing it! Here is a 3rd round start pic...

Riding the maintenance wave

UGH!! I cannot stand being on maintenance. I cannot do it! I have no clue why but it's so difficult for me! I met a personal trainer yesterday at the gym... it was good. He actually KNEW about HCG..which was amazing! He actually DID his homework on it and we could sit and have an intelligent conversation about it! It was great! He encouraged me to do what I am doing. He thinks it's a great plan. I do too! Now if I can ONLY get this maintenance crap down! Why is it so difficult for me? Why? He had a good point yesterday about us as humans and forming habits. Basically around 23 days (which is how long my protocol is for the drops) is as long as it takes to form a habit. SO basically I am so stuck on eating the 2 meals at 500 calories a day.. that switching it up to 3 meals a day to 1,500 calories is throwing me off so bad! It seems that it should be soooo simple to figure out. But for me it's just not coming easy to me. I gained a lb in the last 2 days. I'm not suprised. I have eaten a 6 inch sub for dinner one night and last night for dinner I had cereal. PSHHH.. I wish this could be so much easier~! I want to get back to what I know about the 500 calories but I can't! I HAVE to ride this out! Not to mention I am working my butt off at the gym almost every day.. and me coming home and eating cereal is not ideal. Throwing maintenance ontop of all that makes it so much more worse! I think I need to realize I am still on a program in this phase. I still am not allowed certain things and I am breaking the rules! I think soon as I can I am going to go over my maintenance plan in full detail and write out a few things and guidelines. I refuse to gain any weight back on my maintenance time! No reason I should be going backwards! Wish me luck today. I am going to a potluck and there will be a million foods there. I will opt out and go with nothing. I need to know that I CAN SAY NO. Anyways the day is beautiful.... let's all enjoy it!

Happy Thursday!

Yay it's thursday! I am happy, that means my husband is off tomorrow! Yippy! Been doing good since my last update. Been eating okay.... haven't eaten much really. Been working out faithfully! Last night I did 30 min of high cardio, and 45 min of upper body strength training. I love working out! Just wish I didn't have to go so late in the evening! I wish I could go at 8 every morning. Today for breafast I had 3 scrambled eggs. Right now I am eating an apple. Not sure what lunch will look like since the contractor is here tearing up my kitchen. I'm not to worried about me eating. More worried the kids get somthing for lunch. I just have to figure out my way around the kitchen floor! LOL! Anyways I am down this morning .4 lbs.. which is great. I am so excited to lose lose lose! Tomorrow morning I have a personal trainer meeting at 10am. Wonder what he will say? I am struggling more with eating correctly than working out. It's not that I am eating to much, but too little and that is actually not good for you and can put you in starvation mode which I don't want to do!